1. |
Honest Captain
03:59
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So go now,
If you're happy
'Cause you should be
So go
Happy
Like I should be
Like I can be
I know
Picture perfect comfort and safety
Isn't what made me need you
It sounds shallow to say
It sounds shallow to say
It sounds shallow...
'Cause the honest
honest captain
While upstanding
Says no, no, no
That my loss is
Salutary
And par for the course
And I'm calm and caged again
My friend, my companion
Though my respect you've won
I'm done
And it sounds shallow to say
It sounds shallow to say
It sounds shallow to say
So go now
And be happy
'Cause it's all I want
Happy
Like I try to be
It's not shallow
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2. |
Four Broken Chords
03:35
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Four broken chords
Save me from this place I'm in
Complicate and erase it, then
'Cause I'm bored
(bored)
Face your fears like me
Pretend you know what you're thinkin'
And solve the rest with drinkin'
And you'll see
You're like me this time around [x3]
In this old great place to have been
Such an old great place to have been
Such a shame caressing the wind
In this place I'd like to have been
And four broken chords
Kill the lights, I'm still thinkin'
The bartender won't let me keep drinkin' here
You're like me this time around (here) [x5]
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3. |
Making Progress
03:45
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No answers in the woodwork
Secret meanings, you create them all
Ha...ha...
Do you need a magic garden
to grow what you have had here, now?
And it's not so bad at all
Yeah, I'm fine now
There's no objects making brain waves
No laws that will change our ways
Making progress
No answers...
Secret meanings...
But it's not so bad at all...
at all...
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4. |
Smile
02:33
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Charm me
and disarm me
False alarm to all these clung to misanthropy
People
aren't perfect
Thanks to you we're one more step from the precipice
Oh, you dog, what a guy
What a smile of such size
It's uncanny
As the ground falls beneath
Oh, our frowns, but your smile
It's unyielding
Fortune graced you, you fuck
Don't you act like your luck
was all your heart-earned ending
Go ahead. Smile, you snide angel, grin
Who'd deny you?
We can wait, we'll begin
Once your two-faced, two-faced, condescension ends...
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5. |
Black & White
03:52
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Concealed amidst his space again
Wafting in the wind
A torrent swells beneath his skin
a to and fro again
The quiet and the supple lies
are peaceful as he lays
It sickens me, his thinking that
It never goes away (don't run away)
Don't run away
Expand outwards
Count no loss as your own
If being yourself was half as hard as you say
Then fixing the world, it must have been a total waste
Wouldn't you say?
And seared across my brain
A man who's color had run dry
He wore them, true, the black and blue
Across his weary eyes
When he was alive
Expand outwards,
Count no loss as your own
For subtlety in the black and white
That kept you up at night
And i don't
I don't know what to say
'Cause any other day
it would have only been a joke to you
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6. |
Older
03:15
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You're older
Your shoulder
A full 180 to the right
Sittin' down where you stood up
You fall back
The contact
Jars your memory on the floor
You say you're changing, but you're still the same as before
The same...
Is it wiser to be
what you set out to be
Or to just be the way that you are?
'Cause I do the
The same old
Shit I used to do and don't
Realize it because
What's engrained
Is so plain
Muscle memory, now you're sure
It's harder changing than to stay the same
And It's wiser to be
What you set out to be
Than be one with the shit you let fly
But I push and I shove
Replace my habits and love
What I got, 'cause it's all I know...
And with each generation brings new waves of change
New consequence for me if I refrain
'Cause it's wiser to be
What you set out to be
Than to just be the way that you are
But I push and I shove
Replace my habits and love
Replace my habits and love...
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I'll forgo the blame
Despite what's left to say
Fortune's not a game that's got me half convinced
Up and walk away
Up and walk away
Forget, forget, forget all you said and did
It's only fair that I be honest
It's only fair that I be clear
'Cause once again the cold's upon us
And we're still here,
Truth is bleedin' out
Down the water spout
Oh, spider, spider crawl yourself on up again
Said you'd walk away,
'fore the rain washed you away
And the truth had swallowed whole your sorry life, and it's...
Only fair that I be honest
It's only fair that I be clear
Once again the storm's upon us
Raining, raining...
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8. |
Beggaring
03:18
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Suspend the belief that with
Miserable things I change in a flash
Habits that make me up
Outed and cashed
Oh, yeah
By resolution built in shock
Neural pathways engrained in rock
That comprise me, are somehow
Altered by the grief of loss
Ha, ha...
So beggar and make you think
Your rude awakenings are a thing of the past
Moving forward, forward
Forward, I guess
I'm gonna light up the phone
Of you and everyone you know
And I know I know
No
No, no, no
It's my choice and I'll change right now
I'll change right now
You don't believe me and you don't know how
You don't know how
You don't believe me and you don't know how
You don't know how...
And I'll try and convince you [x5]
I'm gonna light up the phone
Of you and everyone you know...
It's my choice and I'll change right now
I'll change right now
You don't believe me and you don't know how
You don't know how,
You don't believe me [x3]
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9. |
Forest Through the Trees
03:48
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Out on by the center
Watching cars go by
Or underneath the bridges
That we'd often take to hide
Sittin' 'round and smokin'
Like the good old days when
All we'd do is pass 'em by
Just loiter and confide
But now I've grown older, it seems
It don't bother you but the past it haunts my dreams
Been fillin' time with what I got inside
And closin' in on my final place to hide
Hide...
So I am done enabling you
I am done enabling you
Your sanctimonious lectures once had fooled me
But now I'm too
Crippled by your cold ways
It's nothing like the old days
Perhaps, now, too rose-colored are these
Talks of what we've been through
'Cause now that you're older, you need
X-ray specs to see the forest through the trees
And when I'm around, you're always occupied
And closed again, strung out, solemn, and tongue-tied
Call me crazy,
It don't bother me anymore
I won't accept being
All the things that I once abhorred
So now...
Now that it's over, you see
Gone the days of takin' hits out of my dreams
So call me out, I'll never run and hide
Hide...
I'll never hide
Yeah, I'll never hide
I'll never hide...
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10. |
All but Insane
02:53
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Paint it like a picture in a frame
And start over
Walls surround the fixtures of the panes
of your window's enclosure
Am I okay with nothing?
Me, my affects, and wondering
Am I okay with nothing?
Details obligate we pin it down
And be restless
For waves beneath that resonate the sound
And leave you breathless
I am okay and nothing
Me, my affects, and wondering
All but insane (and nothing)
All but insane
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Cameron West New York, New York
Songwriter, keyboardist, French horn player, pit musician, beer and coffee lover, way more of a sad sack in song than in person. ;)
Page banner artwork by Samantha MacDonald.
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